I didn’t get chance to blog yesterday as I was busy being a mum and grandmother the two things that I am most proud of in my life. I try to be the best I can be at these roles I don’t always get it right but I try and strive not to be like my mother was with my sister and I. Now I don’t know if I want to blog about that chapter in my life well not yet anyway sorry but you will have to wait until I am ready to open up that much.
Being pregnant at 18 years old!
Finding out I was pregnant at 18 was a total shock especially as I had periods and had been using the pill and then an even bigger shock was that I was 5 1/2 months pregnant. So I find out in the January and then have Louise in the May three weeks early but a healthy weight which was great. At the time of finding out I had been back living at home and working for WH Smith Do it all a DIY store I don’t know if you will remember them this was back in 1988. My beloved Grandmother Norah was with me when I found out I was pregnant I was so glad she was with me and able to let my mother know as I just couldn’t and just as well I had her with me as the news didn’t go down well at all. Gary and I had been dating for about 2 years and unbeknown to my family had been talking about getting engaged, in fact Gary had given me a ring for Christmas but we decided not to wear on my left hand just yet as he hadn’t sort permission, not that I thought he should. Marriage in my family wasn’t a good topic as my mother had made quite clear that she wouldn’t attend mine or my sisters weddings if our father was involved in any way, thankfully I had decided long ago I wanted either my Grandfather or my wonderful God Father Peter to give me away, as it turned out I didn’t have anyone give me away as no one was invited and it was just Gary myself and two witnesses this is the only way Gary would get married but that’s another blog!
I remember waiting in the kitchen of our family home for my mother and step father to come home from work nervous not knowing how things were going to turn out and omg it was worst than I could ever imagined, my mother wanted me to have a termination, my step father called me a slut and that he knew I would let the family down, but the biggest blow was when they said it would have been easier if i had got pregnant from a one night stand than with the man I loved and been with for two years. So with that Gary was summoned, he got as far as the front door and my mother got hold of my hand placed it in Gary’s opened the front door and pushed us both out and said she is your problem now!